Trauma
(**Commissionned by Lithuanian Composers' Union
This work reflects the aftermath of the most difficult human experiences, which come after brutal and devastating events. One can live with these experiences for a long time, they keep reappearing, one returns to the pain until the pain is integrated, one accepts it, and the inner wounds heal.
The famous psychologist Viktor Frankl, who was imprisoned in a concentration camp, said that 'an abnormal reaction to an abnormal situation is normal'. Interestingly, man is one of the creatures that causes the most distress to himself or to members of his own species. The second most dangerous animal for man is man himself. And while man's active and aggressive nature helps to mobilize resources and make extraordinary achievements possible, it is the fact that, when boundaries are crossed, people kill or traumatize others that makes human existence inextricably linked to the trauma caused by people themselves.
The phrases of the ongoing sounds symbolize episodes of pain that keep returning. At first, we can observe the colours of the changing pain, which slowly grows and explodes into a tense and searing climax, followed by healing.